The Asisian Architects: Well, this was your exit point. This was the moment you were considering to leave this planet, to leave everything else behind. It was a moment that you had programmed for yourself as a way out, if you would not have reached certain truths. It is just the moment when you left here after the information that you had heard then, that you decided to stay anyway because things might get interesting. There might be a party after all. So you decided to stay. Of course, the time between your decision and the actual event that was to take place that would take you away was so short that the accident needed to happen, but it didn?t need to be fatal. You see? The things, the matter and everything couldn?t reorganize itself quickly enough so that the accident didn?t happen. It did happen, but it wasn?t fatal. And it has shifted you as well. It has pushed you into a new area of yourself.
So, explore yourself now. Find your own energetic truth. Find that you are neither male nor female. Find that you hold in your consciousness not a singular limitation. For this is what has happened to you. What has gone away in the end ? for something left during the accident ? what has gone away in the end is in essence the energy of your identity. This is now gone. You are still recreating it in your brain because your brain tries to constantly grasp thoughts, memories, energetic patterns, in the third brain, that it wants to relive, so you are still locking on to identity, but is no longer a part of you.
Akeyasan 4: I was a little bit in shock to see there is nothing.
The Asisian Architects: There is nothing.
Akeyasan 4: The only thing going through me. Then…
The Asisian Architects: But you will find that in nothing there is everything. The only reason you went to nothing is because you actually de-imploded. You imploded yourself again. When you are born on this planet and when you do the big bang thing, you actually become All That Is. When you go away again from this planet you don?t explode, you implode. You take all the energy back with you. And of course there is nothing then, for you weren?t on the other side of the veil, my dear.
Akeyasan 4: Yes, that was shock for me.
The Asisian Architects: You weren?t; you were still here. And to you, for that second, there was no universe, you see? So there was nothing. If you had decided to continue anyway, if you had decided to continue in your death state, then you would have crossed over. Then you would have gone to the other side of the veil and you would have gone to the sea of potential and to the fields of lavender and everything that we metaphorically use to explain this. But the moment of death ? and this is why so many atheists are walking around these days ? the moment of death, you implode the universe back into you. And there is, for one split second, nothing. And this is the same thing that Da Jeshua San went through when he actually died on the cross. Even for him, who is a Master ? everyone here, everyone is a master ? even for him, there was the illusion that there was nothing, that all that he had talked about wasn?t true, wasn?t real, just because he imploded his own universe, and then there seems to be only nothing, only blackness, only emptiness, and this is scary. But even this blackness is you, even this nothingness is you, you see?
Akeyasan 4: Then I have another question. The last months I feel a very strong charge, electrical energy, and sometimes it is so heavy. Inside it is calm, but my body was shaking, so maybe I need to find a way to canalize this energy. It is now… It?s? I must…
The Asisian Architects: Well, the only thing that is happening ? it is not electricity ? what is happening is that there is a dis-congruence, a disharmony between your inner world and your outer world. What you need to do, my dear, is to look at your cells up in the heavens, to look at your cells up in the skies and to just take back what is there. You need to re-integrate parts of yourself within yourself. And that is where you are at right now. You would have done this on the other side of the veil after you would have died. Now you didn?t die, so you need to do it here.
Akeyasan 4: And the smell that I smell, it is like when you burn hair, there is a smell?
The Asisian Architects: O, all your senses, all your senses are changing.
Akeyasan 4: Yes, in the meditation I smell constantly that smell. Is it an alchemistic process?
The Asisian Architects: Well, you could call it ?alchemy.? It is not so much alchemy because alchemy is still taking place on a biological level. But you are doing this on an energy level, so it is not alchemy. It is? a word that does not exist. It is a process of your senses realizing that they are a two-way street. You see, you have always looked at your senses, everybody here has looked at their senses as a one-way street. You look outside: you look out of your eyes; you don?t look in. You smell something, you take the breath in, you do all these things; it is always a one-way street. Yet, you are realizing now that as much as you explode and implode, your senses are also becoming a two-way street. So that is what you are experiencing: you are experiencing the smell of change within you. You see?
Akeyasan 4: Yes, so I must continue on now.
The Asisian Architects: Just continue on and watch out where you go if you ride your bike!
Akeyasan 4: Yes, but it was green!
The Asisian Architects: Yes, it was. So you see that structures and all these things are not working anymore for you. Logic is out of the window, my dear, and so is your identity.
Akeyasan 4: Yes, I know. Okay, thank you.
The Asisian Architects: We love you.
We have time for one last question. A short one, please.
Let?s just say the answer is ?yes.? No, come on.
Akeyasan 5: Aloha.
The Asisian Architects: Mahalo. Are you leaving for Hawaii yet? Just kidding.
Akeyasan 5: I don?t know. I have the feeling that I have been away, so maybe I am in Hawaii.
The Asisian Architects: You have been away.
Akeyasan 5: Yeah, I know. I have got a lot of things going on in my life, but I don?t feel myself.
The Asisian Architects: Why do you think that is? If you feel yourself, my dear, what do you feel normally? What is ?feeling yourself??